vanch.

2010-01-16T17:02:00.006+08:00

so, past few days werent good.

sick 3/5 days- m.cramp plus vomitting/giddiness.

i think im so weak i can die anytime -.-

didnt enjoy orientation as much as the rest did.

tolling under the hot sun, getting mad dirty, fooled into running extra god-knows-how-many kilometres................... definitely not my cup of tea.

i guess im still existing in dec 2009, in hong kong.

miss those days ):

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merely started on bsp lunwen, someone kill me please.

hong kong's too nice a place to allow me to coop myself up at home for it.

sighhhhh.

shall enjoy churning out words bit by bit.

haimen buddy arriving tmr.

planning to go out with nien an and perhaps the rest.

depends on how things go though.

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for now i shall be obedient and take my daily dosage of lunwen.

goodbye.

2009-12-24T16:30:00.000+08:00

有时真是觉得自己好懦弱。竟然可以为佐一个问题喊完又喊，喊了好耐，浪费佐好多时间，令到身边好多关心自已既人都觉得好倦累。我自己又何尝吾是呃? 好难去克服心魔，让自己开心番。如果可以选择逃避，我一定会义不容辞。阿妹讲得无错，一架车走在马路上，无可能永远行一条直路，终须要转弯。但是如果我识喳车，我想我一定会是遇到弯角时而立即放弃喳车的人。
要改变心态好难。我都想快D可以强势回归。但有D野是吾急得。我知道应该点做，但是到真是要滴起心肝去做的时候，心入面竟然会争扎。而那种煎熬实际上是比死更难受。
体过好多友人的照片，讲述扒地点好玩点热闹，体完之后我却更加吾想再同任何学校既人有任何联系。我吾理人地的圈子有几大，我净是想快趣D过埋剩低既两年，然后离开。我根本吾属于那里。点解要折磨自己搞到自己吾开心。
对于几个曾经伤害过自己的人，我更加无话可说，无言以对。但是要我以德报怨，我实在做吾到。

2009-12-02T17:51:00.000+08:00

living life in decadence everyday D:
shopping, eating, walking, talking, sleeping, spending......
nothing constructive.
except i get to spend really quality time with my parents and sis.
with sis, esp at night when she talks non-stop on the bed, robbing me of my beauty slp :/
read others' blogs about how fruitful their holidays are spent on jobs, camps etc. and i feel really.
hopeless.
hahahahaha kidding.
i love life here, seriously (:
second day into december, yeah the christmas month.
everywhere's getting christmassy here, all the music and deco.
but the faster we are into the month, the more i dont want time to fly ):
cos it means going back to the dreaded place real soon.
and i really hate it!
):
everyday's laughs and carefree-ness here i am so used to happy life and the thought of losing all the happiness here scares me.
it's like, poof.
everything great and good's gonna be gone )))))))))))))))):
and it seems like i wont know when i'll be getting 'em back.
sighhhhh.
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dinner real soon, at megabox with my dad's friend.
i dont care i am gonna have shark fins, abalone and bird's nest today!
missed it ytd night cos of our filled tummies from high tea but today, our stomachs are empty hoho!
at least mine is (:
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on a sidenote, happy trip round usa to all the bsp scholars ):
wish i was there but kind of glad i am in hk.
butttttttttttttttttttttttt.
i am getting uglier and fatter by the day> :/
(!)

2009-11-19T00:12:00.000+08:00

(life rocks here.)

've been shopping and shopping (:
going to korea sooooooooon yay!
cant wait haha.
but stupid bsp lunwen spoil my mood. zzzzz.
I REALLY DWN TO GO BACK TO SG SUCKZXZXZXZXZXZXZXZXZXZX.

TO IRIS AND SUMEI:
please bring more shirts -.- its cold here LOL and and and tell me your flight details again soooooon though i've asked like a billion times hahaha just in case it slips my mind and i forget to get yall frm the airport D:
oh and bring empty luggages LOL.
leave me an offline msg if you see this!
:D

2009-11-15T13:55:00.000+08:00

感觉好兴奋。
听日就返到屋企啦！
:D
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越留在这个鬼地方，心入面就越有一种好唔自在既心情。
这又难怪，我根本唔钟意这里既任何事和物。
真是越来越讨厌这里。
如果可以的话，我想我一定唔会返来新加坡。
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好啦，要继续执野啦！
如果你们看不明白我在说什么，那是因为我是在用广东话。
又或者，你们根本不了解我。

2009-11-10T15:58:00.000+08:00

(takers?)

yep, shall pray hard i land in the same cls as daphne, if not i'll just go kill myself.

never thought i'd take geography after all the frequent complains lol.

i feel so sad today idk why!

chinese o's over, supp to be a happy thing but argh i'm feeling down ):

not cos of the paper -.-

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sumei's educating me online about my subj combi:

♥ə̲̅F٥̲̅٦̅ sumei says:
omg
can u take chem
THEN UR JOB HOW
sumei's such an idiot (:

never intended to work LOL.

aiya idk what i want to be so dont care -.-

consulted my dad abt subj combi, but he's in shanghai so guess he wasnt really serious abt what he told me at all.

anw, here's what he said: "haiyo science subj got practical exam leh you sure you can meh... aiya anw, since you dont want listen to me and take physics, i dont want to listen to you about taking chem too. so........... take geography :D"

LOL papa wins all.

so anyway.......................................

yep, bent on taking c103.

a cashier doesnt rich scientific concepts, i presume lol.

i am feeling so sad idk why!

argh okay.

going off soon to meet my mom for spa (:

2009-11-07T12:33:00.000+08:00

(blooming so bright.)

took that pic in china (: imba photography skills haha.

or maybe cos of sissy's imba camera!

chinese o's coming tuesday, dread it.

my sis' gonna cut her hair on tuesday into some mushroom shape LOL so she anticipates the 10th but i dont want it to come cos i am totally not prepared for chi ):

need to secure at least an A2 so i wont be haunted by chi next year, argh stupid bsp.

hooked onto 宫心计currently, featuring tavia yeung, charmaine sheh, kevin cheng and moses chan! their costumes are superbbbbbbbbb i love 'em! but everybody's so jian1 and jian4 lol makes me ~~even more~~ skeptical about life -.-

so today, i shall watch 1 or 2 episodes before lunch and then subdue.

to chinese.

yes.

gonna mark the pract papers when i come home, and then study a bit for compo.

okay okay i shall do that. jiayou van!

2009-11-01T18:23:00.000+08:00

(the sun will shine, my friend)

amidst the worry and panic, i still wanted to list out the upcoming big things. so here goes in order:

~~1) visit to chinese physician again :S~~

~~2) last day of sch + farewell to mr sng (6 nov)~~

~~3) hcl olevels (10 nov morning)~~

~~4) spa with momsy (10 nov afternoon/evening)~~

~~5) body check at the usual hosp :X (12/13 nov)~~

6) fly to hk with momsy and sis (16 nov)

7) flying back to sg alone (29 nov) ***

8) flying to USA with sch- bsp trip (30 nov)

9) flying back to hk alone again (13/14 dec)

10) sumei and iris' grand (haha righttttt :D) arrival (29 dec)

11) return to sg with momsy, su and iris (6th jan)

okay thats all.

chinese hmwk not done.

issue(s) not settled.

gdbye world.

2009-11-01T18:07:00.000+08:00

(tell me: what else can be done?)

if time could travel backwards, i promise i'd pick up my phone ):

come home soon, please?

2009-10-31T14:30:00.000+08:00

~~BSP TRIP '09~~

i have no idea what sim yz is doing HAHA.

our gorgeous hotel room in hangzhou. if not for the crap 2hr chinese lesson, cld have enjoyed more in the room tskkk.

xi hu scenery :D took this on a boat like the one in the pic.

nien an! (:

the nieces plus fel :D

bsp family (: felicia's the newcomer HAHA, our gugu :D
my buddy's house :D it's for real okay LOL.

pattern of a roof in some garden, so pretty (:
i love this pic, so serene and seems hopeful!

rlly miss china-- the weather oh yes -.- the heat in sg is killing me! oh and the bsp trip was zomg funnnnnnnnnn! with funny ppl funny things happen haha :D

eoy results were fine but not as good as last year (okay, like duh lol). but satisfactory lah! expectations are lowered for myself alr (: rlly dread going on to jc life :X esp in the same old place zzz. too late to transfer alr huh? heard hcjc not accepting anymore ):

managed to see stupid iris tan aili off for her thailand trip. stupid woman never fails to act stupidly and bimbotically (omgosh i like the word haha)! anddddddddd she owes me an explanation to sth drastic! shocked me when i first heard it i am serious i rlly felt like strangling her LOL. wait till she returns haha! had a fab lunch at swensen's with suuuuuu! were feeling so rich and high cls hahaha!

phys workshop for the past two days. the course was quite.. boring lol but the ppl made it fun haha. i love my cls! hope its not too late to realize this in the last week of sch eh?

okay i think i am going to die choosing subj combi and cca. i am not interested in anything at all zzzz. wanted to take phys initially but no thanks after the workshop and looking at my phys result -.- saying no to bio too because i hate studying for it and i dn like microbiology! chem's fine but i dont like organic chem. considering h1 maths but i know my father wont allow -.- to some extent i am happy i have to take csc cos that narrows down to 3 more options for me which means i dont have to kill more brain cells to think of even more subj to take LOL. okay so currently its chem, math, econs and csc. cmec haha i like the acronym. anyone else? dont ask me what cca i am going to join i freaking do not know ugh.

the sun's shining so brightly outside i feel like staying in my room forever to enjoy full-blast aircon hahahaha :D dreading chinese pract papers and zuowen. i hate olvls -.-

argh okay shall go off to talk to my buddy (<3)

to-do:

read all chi ppt slides
finish up pract papers (dk how many TT)
clear dhs mail (spammed by lsk's chinese stuff zzzz)

tata!

2009-10-08T13:01:00.000+08:00

(in a mess.)

bad time to blog, yeah i know.

rained just now when i was going home.

liked the wind and coolness but the connotation behind rain drops is a little too coincidental today.

phys test was a major flop.

makes me waver: idk if i still want to take phys in sh.

exams this year suck big time, its like they're all out to drink our blood.

yum.

or is it just mine :/

tmr marks the end of exams.

was thinking life'd be better for me if my jap o'level oral exam's not tmr.

at least i can slack abit at home right after brain-boggling maths 2 ):

posting abt this today, reckon i'd be too tired tmr to use the computer.

2009-09-18T19:02:00.000+08:00

ah fffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffck.
suddenly feeling super irritable ):
idk why.
just feel like flooding this space with the f-word.

2009-09-07T22:09:00.000+08:00

this will be the last post till 10 oct.
i swear.
bloghopping used to be a relaxing thing but oh gosh, it kinda turned into a nightmare -.-
most of the blogs were talking abt mugging.
o-m-g.
talk abt mugging, i havent started at all lol.
been trying desperately to finish up holiday hmwk this few days.
not a lot, but being the slow person and procrastinator (sp?) i am..................
okay i know, things are pretty screwed.
):
you can really tell that the teachers were trying to be nice by not giving much work, but doesnt make a difference to me. sigh.
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will start doing notes for sciences tmr.
wish me luck.
leaving for genting on thurs.
yes, i am still going on a holiday.
good job huh?
life is screwed.
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and as screwed as it is, something else is bothering me.
something i wish had disappeared a long time ago.

2009-08-31T22:04:00.000+08:00

teacher's day celeb + jap oral prelims today.

i am so glad that its just prelims, i'd have jumped down the building immediately if it was olevels ):

screwed it up, as usual.

this term's a bad one.

so is the one to come.

tmr's first sept, and that marks the start of my horror for eoys.

yeah start, i must have been lagging or sth.

havent done anything at all abt eoys.

have a seriously screwed feeling that i'm gonna flop everything.

havent been doing very well this term anw :X

i am such a disappointment ):

celeb today was......................

tied two ponytails the first time ever since p3 oh gosh i look totally spastic and weird and disgusting ugh.

besides the utter humiliation, everything else was pointless, totally lol.

maybe 'cept the concert part, quite okay luh.

cabbed to j8 for lunch with my loved ones (:

though one of 'em punched me real hard and now i've got a big blue-black blister on my bottom lip ))))):

stupid part-of-the-eye, i hate you! (:

okay i am gonna be real broke this month> iris, su and jiatecky's bday!

nooooo why cant they be born on separate months so i can even out my spendings hahaha.

sigh.

i am not exactly feeling very happy now cos of many things.

this week's screwed with phys, geog, jap prelims, bio and math quizes coming my way.

so far i've only completed studying for math quiz.

great.

've been really slack all these while.

spent too much time worrying abt this and that but yet not doing anything to solve 'em.

i wonder when everything will end.

soon i hope.

really tired and hopeless.

been trying my best but to no avail.

gosh i guess thats just me.

not gonna touch this space until 10th october.

all the best, goodluck.

yeah i'll need it. ):

2009-08-15T17:41:00.000+08:00

oh gosh today's a bad day gah. i realize i cant survive weekends ): not that i can survive sch days either oh no i cant survive either way ._. been out entire morning doing nothing. going out agn soon. merely rested my legs enough and there we are out of the hse agn zzzzz. so many things to do and i havent done most of 'em. and i need to go to the physician to do a checkup on my armmmm. gosh i think i wearied my joint/hinge/muscle/bone/whatever you call it during pe when we were playing bball o.o omg lol i rlly cant play ball -.-

tough weekend and week ahead agn! life's horrible to the max.

2009-08-14T19:23:00.000+08:00

okay i was trying to find a nice phrase to fit with the little bobby heads i drew hahaha and in the end i resorted to using the one you see now hoho.

doesnt mean anything to me actually, just that i think it fits quite well.

hahaha.

sis' not home from cca yet aww poor thing LOL.

've been slacking rather badly since i reached home.

read times mag omg the first time i am ever doing it from the time we got the first issue :X

such a waste of money i am not into reading any sort of informative articles of whatever global news -.-

chem test's next week, hope its the only test lol.

monday's gna be a slack but surprisingly long day for that purpose -.-

dhrp symposium haha good luck daph and jane (:

option 3 with kewei and yasi yay we are gna get more aircon cos our lt's super empty from the look on the list haha. so shuang :D

next thurs' declared hols zzzzzzzz but whats the pt when third lang's still on ahhh.

the school's too smart lol why cant they declare tues as hols instead -.-

obviously not cos tuesday's a looooooong sch day grrr.

okay, realized i've been posting abit too frequently here :X

promise i wont be this free next week sighhh.

2009-08-13T20:36:00.000+08:00

jap was surprisingly fine today! :D sensei was sooo cute as usual hahaha. tmr's friday oh yes (: this week's been pretty good and bad haha, good cos there were only a few tests and bad cos of some unpleasant stuff still -_- daddy just shipped over a whole load of stuff omg lol--drama dvds, my aunts pressie from japan<3,>there's no homework tdy hahaha so i shall slack and indulge in hk dramassss!

omg super embarrassing thing happened today -.- i wore the wrong shorts for pe agn!!!!!! not the first time arghhhh but the previous two times i've got daphne and zoe's shorts to back me up haha. this time's unlucky lol. but luckily mr ang allowed me to wear that LOL. the color's a little... obscene though haha and the cls was staring at me change into my 'pe' attire ._. so was mr ang omg lol i felt like i was stripping hahaha.

okay shall go off to ransack through papa's cargo haha and fish for the dvds :D

2009-08-12T19:46:00.000+08:00

gay color yes! but i am poor at making any sort of choices so its an improvement i decided on this color haha.

rough week :/ okay idk why but yeah rather rough LOL.

however! i am glad sth's over muahahahaha yes kewei and daph yknow what i mean (:

not bad not bad i am rather happy over that, sorry to say but yeah :X

chi test's tmr, gna crap my way through gong han zzz.

heard next wk will prolly be a really short week (:

shall look out for announcements on friday!

okay i've got alot of things to say before i logged on to blogger but i cant rmb any now!!!!!

jap's tmr T.T missed two lessons in a row alr ahhh.

i will laugh if i get above C6 for my O's argh.

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kay cos of some shit i am not exactly supp to feel very happy now.

in fact i am not really very superbly glad cos of that sth else ahh oman.

but, i will try to stay happy cos of the great piece of news received today gahahaha.

okay this is a random and crazy post ._.

ahhh off to study gong han -.-

and thennnnnnnnnnnn its tv time! :D

2009-08-09T22:54:00.000+08:00

for some crap reason i am not in the best mood now.

argh.

maybe i am not used to long weekends ):

today's nationay day so happy bday sg.

but somehow i wish i was in hk right now.

i feel blessed that tmr's a holiday.

but aft tmr that will mean no more long breaks till sep hols.

how ironical- i just said i am not adjusted to long weekends and now i wish there were more to come.

zz.

i dont understand myself sometimes.

but i am glad my dad unds me more than i do.

spending time on the phone with him's relieving.

but somehow i have to find time to give him a call amidst the piles of sch wk.

teachers nvr learn, do they.

was scanning through old photos in my folders and i saw smiling faces.

time machine, anyone?

2009-08-07T22:36:00.000+08:00

(<3)

(our string of tickets)

celeb today was erm.

okay.

hahaha except for the morn assembly part it was so freakinggggg hot in the parade square and the song singing was.

LOL no comments.

anw comb with 4F for the class activity haha it was quite fun (:

and omg me and kewei: 'its the little things that rlly rlly count'

omgggg hahahaha we own LOL.

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aft that was class outing! <3

plus 4L peeps haha.

not bad i think we got ard 17 ppl whooots.

took 14 to suntec the journey was fun haha switching seats on the bus with stupid iris' classmates hahaha.

went over to marina and caught UP!

super funny haha some parts were touching though.

the best thing is the young boy in the show looks like seana's scout jnr!

hahahahaha.

sandwiched btw daph and seana during the movie hohoho.

dear jane actually fell aslp for awhile zomg -.-

and stupid daph actually teared at the touching parts omg LOL she's too sentimental hahaha.

went around to source for v's present haha.

got her some brain-boggling thing LOL!

then we took super duper long to decide where to go next.

it was 4 plus when we started to decide and then we ended up tossing coins at city hall mrt at 5.40++

some say iluma some say ion -.-

so yep i managed to toss my first coin (despite letting it drop onto the floor still) and it turned out to be tail so we decided to head home LOL

after all the suggestions hmmmm hahaha

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've been slacking ever since i reached home LOL watched 5 epi of hk drama :D

shall start work tmr its long wkend anw (:

thats all for now!

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oh and yep, i love my class <3

2009-08-02T16:43:00.000+08:00

Havent been posting pics in a long long time.
so here's some super duper ~~random~~ pics from my phone.

this was me 15 years ago haha.
my collectibles, you see i have super limited space

to do work ahaha.

my momsy omgggg she's trying to mimic my sis!

ammonia family by yours truly ahaha. i was

bored in class. yasi took a pic of this too omg

i am talented! :D

the current state of my table.

ahhhhh i havent touched so many things nooooooooo.

tmr's geog trip to ecp -.-

mom: tmr your lessons end what time?

me: ehhh ard 6 plus i will reach home.

mom: orh why so late ah.

me: cos going ecp.

mom: woah no tests this wk ah so free. go ecp play vball?

me: ?!?!?! no lah sch trip.

mom: sch bring you go ecp play what lah.

me: NOT PLAY. NEED DO REPORT ONE.

omg my momsy's so cute -.-

she's listening to mp3 while ironing our uniform.

that explains the iron print on one of my sis' pe shirt hahahahah!

poor sissy, this two days her biological clock got screwed up D:

she's slping forever -.-

frm 3 to 7 wowwww.

i shant say why this happened to her LOL.

okay gtg mug and things like that ):

2009-07-31T17:04:00.000+08:00

Boredom.

disgusting color, yeah i know.
but it shows exactly how i feel now.
disgusted.
had a totally ______ time after sch idk how to describe it but yeah good and bad.
4hours gone, not like i am very free :X
still thinking abt whether i shld go for spa later with my mom or ask her to postpone it tmr.
tmr i guess.
i am too tired.
the 158 journey alone was blissful, listening to music and looking at pedestrians suffer in the sweltering heat out there.
sadistic, yep, me.

i feel so sweaty and grimy and sticky i feel like swimming.
lol random yes i guess.
this week's a bad week.
've been forgetting things i need to rmb and rmb-ing things i ought to erase frm my mind.
i forgot to replenish my supply of blue pens.
):
sigh bad day.

idk whats coming over me i just prefer being at home/alone/with ppl i can hang ard with--little.
looking forward to pe lessons on thursday i like playing with my cls (:

2009-07-30T18:40:00.000+08:00

Screwed day.

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during pe we played bball (omg yes cant imagine me playing zz). was staring at ohp on the second storey aft daphne looked towards his direction. then i had no idea why i was staring so long (i realized today that i tend to stare at the funniest things/people) and then a ball ran right smack into my face! blur kewei hahaha. it didnt rlly hurt much but i guess it destroyed my plastic nose LOLLLLL. kewei's gonna pay for my surgery fees ahaha.

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i realize sheryl forgot my phone no. ): i smsed her happy bday and she replied 'thank you who's this btw' (sth like that haha) omann. haha but soon she rmb and smsed me back hooray.
happy 16th bday old friend! (:

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okay now here's the screwed part.
i rewrote my chi compo three times during HCL period and obviously i didnt complete it on time. so being the very nice teacher, lsk didnt allow me to bring it home to complete (okay she did bdn need deduct marks which will make my compo overall C or sth zz) and insisted that i hand in today. so i smartly decided to skip third lang for this bloody essay which i had no idea at all what to write abt because it was abt life. asking a person with totally no life to churn out a few pages of words abt life is shit. zz but i cldnt choose any other topic cos i had totally no idea what to write abt for those.

oh btw, thanks yasi for giving me your correction tape! :X

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went home with my sis and her friend haha the journey was rather crappy (: now that i get to reach home before 8 on thursdays, i ought to do sth productive.
sth like editting ace essay and making it below 2000.
gosh.

2009-07-29T18:56:00.000+08:00

the only reason why i am blogging is cos i have to log on to moelc webpage and do jap hmwk.
tmr's thursday and i hate it cos the day ends real late.
bio viva's tmr and its rather scary :X
tests this week are all screwed up by yours truly: chem prac and geog map reading ):
things are rlly going down.
:/

was wondering during dinner ytd what cca i shld join in sh.
LOL after a tedious process of elimination, i realize.
there's nothing.
no music grps because i suck real bad at playing any instrument.
no sports because of my imba involuntary reflexes.
no performing arts aka dance (come on i can't dance for nuts) or drama because i wonder what will happen. again.
okay are there actually anymore choices left.
i wonder -.-

hahahahaha okay this is real bad.
so yep you see why leaving turns out to be a much much much better choice.
lol bdn i figured that all the rambling abt leaving will turn out to be pure-talk.
zzzz.
life sucks.

sept hols are near omg yay.
cameron highlands and genting (:
never been to the former before (omgggggg so lag right) and my impressions of the latter's too fague to rmb haha.
so yep wonderfully exciting trip for me LOL.
more like for my mom cos she's starting packing alr.
-_-
its 3D2N only haha!

okay gtg do jap and mug on enzymes -.-

2009-07-22T18:01:00.000+08:00

if you're uninterested, naturally you won't be committed.
thinking back, i rlly shld have ____ along with my dear prawn friend back in 2007 ):
rlly shld have. i swear if i am given another chance i'll defintely do so without hesitation.
who cares about demerit points or whatsoever the pain from knwing that your records will be marred is temporary.
i am feeling so detached now i find it totally pointless.

i wish lessons end at 4.15 on wednesdays.
i wish my phone has a filter to filter away messages from those ppl.
i wish my eyes could see selectively so i dont have to pretend to see/smile/wave/acknowledge ppl i don't want to.
i wish i didnt say 'okay' (although i did so very very reluctantly if not for my dad's persuasion) to the damn call at the damn time.
i wish i wasn't in it to begin with.
i wish frm this moment onwards i have nothing to with it anymore.

i am so sorry i had to post this because i needed somewhere to vent.
i'll do the same thing at the dinner table with my mom and sis later.

for now, off to complete jap online work and compo and mug for phys pop.

2009-07-18T23:23:00.000+08:00

last performance with eds juniors.
seeing everyone so on and enthu and bubbly leaves me a good last impression (:
anw, i just want to say, all the best and good luck to yall for upcoming 'lit up' performances!
the chamber at arts house is a darn cool place haha do your bestest guys!
and and and bond the entire drama tgt because you all are the best and most fortunate cohort ever and you guys know each other so well nothing can go between yall.

come to think of it, my juniors are the only people who are capable of making me miss cca times.
(:

---

talk about bonding, certain things that operate separately and has got nothing to do with each other technically speaking shld just be ripped apart and not fall under the same name.
well,unless there's a chance of producing musicals next year.
cos right now, the arrangement is pure.. disgusting.

2009-07-17T19:05:00.000+08:00

SOMETIMES I WISH I HAD A MACHINE THAT CAN MAKE ME VANISH AS AND WHEN I WANT.
PFFT.
assholic idiots ugh.
i don't care anymore i am so going to black-face anyone and everyone there not that i give a damn anw.
and some ppl are just getting onto my nerves, think before you speak and i seriously think you ought to ______ so that _______.
ffffff.
i think only my sister will know what i am hinting at LOL.
its far too subtle.
and and and.
i agree with her abt ______.
act innocent yah right i am sure you dk whats a (insert the super duper primary-school-kid-also-know item here).
sucks.

after tmr i am gonna be a happy person agn.
i hope.
but ohwell at least i get to totally severe ties with anything that has got to do with xxx.

and mind you, don't anyhow -------- me cos you are not in my position so you can feel what i felt throughout these torturous years.
before you jump to any conclusions, do put yourself into others' shoes.
well if you want to do that literally, sure go ahead.

and to you, do know that i can't mingle well with you and can will never do so because once upon a time when i made the effort to try at least, you didnt give a damn.
rlly want to type sth here but that'd make it too damn obvious so all i can say is that, i gave up trying and if you think i am avoiding you in any ways, by all means.

tsk the sight of any xxx and yyy makes me wanna just roll my eyes and walk away.

---

okay this is a rather hateful post LOL.
sorry but can't help it.
feelings are meant to be unleashed, hm?

on a sidenote, happy guessing who's who but if you can't i suggest you don't lest you think the 'you's refer to you.

2009-07-05T12:58:00.000+08:00

(been there, done that)

pictures were from ermmm 2007 when i was on family trip to san fran, LA and LV.

obviously didnt post my own picture cos i looked so funny!

all the picts feature my mom isnt she cute hahaha.

anw random post.

what i want to say is: i want to go to US again! with my family (:

pig flu quick quick disappear! (eh wait no i kinda like the arrangements in sch now: no (morn) assembly, no CCA, no 'mass gathering' etc etc--would really like to bold sth but that'd make it too obvious [:)

okay so yep pig flu just dont worsen stay as you are now LOL -.-
schs on tuesday no dont remind me please.

2009-07-03T18:13:00.000+08:00

(the love of my life)

does that mean there's not gonna be youth day celeb !

okay lol i think its quite obvious -_-

hahaha my sister and i did sth quite mean when we learnt of this (LOL okay i think its me only haha)

ANW.

i completed the stuuuupid hbl LA pamphlet!

was supp to do on zipper (lucky my reg no. is 1 not 18 otherwise i'd have to do on toothbrushes HAHAHA)

okay nothing really funny abt that but idk why it sounds quite amazing to me.

the invention of a toothbrush.

LOL

okay if you realize i sound much much much happier nowadays, that's cos i havent been going to sch for a wonderful long week.

tell me i dont have to go to sch anymore from now on.

i dont mind hbl forever (without the workload though)

thats all, need to cont with physics and chem and math(?) and anymoreeeee idk -.-

2009-07-01T16:50:00.000+08:00

(i miss you, really do)

- picture from sister's blog

hong kong )))):

(edit: 12.52am)

hello i feel so accomplished i managed to finish phys hbl before 1am :D

its just 8min but yeah quite a feat for me okay!

the activity this time round's quite okay compared to the previous (:

let's see what i have tmr:

bio hbl on some monhybrid thing -_-
chem hbl assignment
geog (!! :D) hbl on some virtual tour yay yay
LA hbl-DESIGN PAMPHLET WTF- totally of no use to anyone i bet not even the teachers tsk tsk waste my time
math supp ws from class
ACE ESSAY (yes i havent touched it at all despite the prev prev post hahaha see how slow i am D:)

is this too ambitious :/oh well i am waiting for my sis to finish her hbl so we can catch a show tgt :D and today's a rather productive day(: for me -.-

(/edit: 12.57pm)

HBL sucks totally lah.

not that i want to go sch at all but the workload's the same or maybe more -.-

when everyone was having some boring-can-doze-off-doesnt-matter LA lecture in sch, i gotta do some crappy concept map abt the history of technology ._.

how cool right yeah i know tsk.

everyday's working past 1am to me cos i am a slow homework do-er!

i am so detached to all the academic topics it takes me ages to get back on track ):

but on the other hand, i like geog :)

coastal studies are rather cool haha.

the assignments are nice too not because of the qns (duh) but cos every assignment has pictures haha the coasts look so nice!

okay i am digressing.

what i want to say is.

i want to stay at home forever and not go to school anymore LOL.

monday's a holiday (yayness to the extra 9 days of holidays i've gotten) and this makes me even more adapted to my room!

at least i can understand at my own pace (which is superrrrr slow) and slack around as and when i wish ):

i really dont mind not going to school i am so in love with my house and my family i feel like i own the whole world just by staying at home.

p.s. i had a weird dream ytd. i dreamt i was totally being rebellious and teacher wanted to see my dad. then they asked me what happened to my results and schwk blah and i replied: i dont want to study in sg anymore i want to go back to hk.

wowwww i wonder if this might work.

hmm.

p.s.s. off to chiong chem and phys hbl now i want to have a freer night tonight so i can watch my hk dramas and think back abt the past month in hk-- the late dinners, supper desserts at 3am +, late night shopping till 1am, midnight dramas, irritating my toddler cousin, flipping through this shirt that skirt and tossing this pencil case and that asking my sis/aunt/whoever is next to me: shld i buy etc etc etc

argh. the irregularity of hong kong (:

i hate regularities (anyhow spell lah i dont knw if this word doesnt exist haha) ~~in sg~~.

2009-06-28T13:30:00.000+08:00

Hello!

i am back in sg ): and i am missing hk badly!
can't believe my sis and i actually cried before coming back LOL.

and yep because i returned on the 26th i am on LOA for the entire week 1 yay.
okay bdn i just saw the weekly plan for lost souls like myself and i totally went O.O
hahahaha okay lol i am going to do things slowly at my own pace.
(:
mr zein called ytd and LOL funny shitty convo ask SUMEI.
AHAHAHA she was eavesdropping on my call!
and yep i received a funny sms from an unknown person asking me to sms mrs phua by 8am every morning to tell her my health status.
i dont mind smsing her but the thing is.
8am wowwww.
my plans of waking up at 1pm everyday are ruined -.-
okay anw,
since i am feeling rather hopeful (idk why) i shall put up my timetable for today:

Jap web news review
Jap compo "Earth's future"
Attempt to read Jap book
Attempt to start on Jap book review
Try to start on ACE essay (must tell myself it's only 500 words argh!)

okay looks like i will be a really jap person today -.-

p.s. although i sound very enthu and hyper i am not ._. i am suffering from post-HK trip syndrome ))))))):

2009-06-22T14:03:00.000+08:00

certain feelings can't be changed.
just like how i hate _ _ and _ _ _, i can't change what i love.
okay thats not the main point lol.
the main point is i love my dad loadssssss.
he's the best dad ever seriously (:
oh and not to forget my momsy!
she's always soooo cute yay!

alright idk whats with my sudden confession to my parents but i feel like a fortunate kid hahaha.
:D

2009-06-20T17:11:00.000+08:00

drag me back to sg if you will,
but i am so not going to return ):
(if only i have a choice lol)

2009-06-14T23:50:00.000+08:00

i feel like i am dying gah.
drank 4 glasses of beer just now and my tummy hurts like shit :/
this never happened before okay!
tried vomitting in the toilet while i was bathing but that didnt work.
really felt like puking but once i stare hard into the toilet bowl, all the contents seem to flow back down into my intestines -.-
maybe the toilet bowl's too clean lol.
ahhh no no no no this sucks and my face is super red.
i think my temp's a little higher than normal now with the rush of adrenaline oh wow i am down with swine -.-
ughhhhh this is bad i am going off to dieeeeee.

will get killed by maths tomorrow.
i will.

(oh and did i mention i love my mommy and daddy!)

p.s. i havent gotten so many things i want:
1) new bag- my eyes are alr fixed on one but shall go ard to see see look look and if there's none, i am getting my hands on that
2) new school shoes- i want the pair i tried tdy but ah! nvm there's still othersssss
3) bundles of tel phone wires for my hair LOL
4) sandals- my sis kupped the pair i liked! but i am gonna kup it when she's not wearing LOL
5) wallet(s)
6) pencil case(s)
7) multipurpose file
8) coloured pens and markers- loads of them!

okay thats not enough to fill my empty luggage shall buy more as i go ard -.-
but meanwhile, no shopping for me unless i finish math D: (which i have NOT touched at all)

2009-06-13T16:31:00.000+08:00

for heaven's sake.
i am away frm sg.
ugh.

2009-06-11T17:12:00.000+08:00

(the show i have been watching every day and

night :D tavia yeung and steven ma omgggg)

(erm i was too bored with work lol)

(my new ~~cam~~ ahahaha dont be fooled (;)

(my sister's glam shoes -.-)

(dinner with relatives lol the ceiling's a mirror)

(okay this cam's real, but not mine -.-)

finished both bio papers whoo but i didnt have anything to refer to so yep the ans are ._. crap like shit. i stared at the marks bracketed at the end of each qn and didnt feel good about my shitty ans ughhh.

progress is really slowwww nowadays esp with all the tvb shows on air ahhh and shopping oh noooo ):

havent started on maths at all sighhh. somehow the motivation's *gulp* gone haha!

okay mom's back with food :D gotta start on math before i indulge in my STEVIA (steven ma + tavia yeung) show again! (though i've watched the grand finale but i am gonna rewatch the middle parts LOL cos i skipped some of them in order to get myself to the last episode and kill my fierce curiosity as to what happened in the end bahahaha.)

bye!

2009-06-07T18:46:00.000+08:00

(doing homework the whole of today T.T

but yay i finished my chinese pract paper)

(our princessy room :D i take the pink side of

course hohoho)

(my hairy arm -.- against my pretty green bag!)

(i never knew my sis has a taste for shoes like

this ._.)

(the pretty boy and the cute girl- my sis wow.)

(okay i think our hair looks kuku -.-)

(i love my dad's car whoo!)

(my starry earings on a table cloth!)

AND LASTLY.
(my frustrated sister doing hmwk hahaha)

okay dinner time soon.

always eating out muahaha i love outside food.

going to the city afterwards late night shopping yayyyyy.

2009-06-06T17:07:00.000+08:00

(bye sg lol.)

(on my papa's car when we first arrived.)

(ought to get myself one of those agnes b. bears this time!)
(hang on there, you've loads of hmwk awaiting you van. -.-)
(i see no need for a camera with my phone LOL but i dont mind one if daddy's gonna get it for my sis haha.)

mommy went out shopping with my aunt.
at home with daddy and sis.
shall finish up some work before my turn to shop next week.
:D

2009-06-04T17:56:00.000+08:00

AN INTERESTING CONVO WITH JANE TAN HUI LING :D

vanessa. says:
ANW
- Jane*- gonna be okay says:
?
vanessa. says:
DO U WANT CAT STUFF
vanessa. says:
OR
vanessa. says:
MAMEGOME (sp?)
vanessa. says:
HAHAHAHA
vanessa. says:
IDK HOW TO SPELL THE SEAL THING
vanessa. says:
-.-
- Jane*- gonna be okay says:
ROFL I WANT UR NEW HSE
- Jane*- gonna be okay says:
haha
vanessa. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
vanessa. says:
how u know i got new hse
vanessa. says:
!
- Jane*- gonna be okay says:
O:
- Jane*- gonna be okay says:
i thought u said?
- Jane*- gonna be okay says:
and ur blog
- Jane*- gonna be okay says:
HAHA
vanessa. says:
actually hse not new lah is renovate
- Jane*- gonna be okay says:
hmm okay lor HAHA
vanessa. says:
muaha okay okay i dn care lah i see which one nicer than buy
vanessa. says:
(:
vanessa. says:
here got alot of cats and seals -.-
- Jane*- gonna be okay says:
LOL no need luh
vanessa. says:
eh how to spell seal
- Jane*- gonna be okay says:
LOL
vanessa. says:
LOL
- Jane*- gonna be okay says:
mamegoma?
- Jane*- gonna be okay says:
LOL
vanessa. says:
LOL i meant
vanessa. says:
the eng one
vanessa. says:
like seal
vanessa. says:
did i spell correctly
- Jane*- gonna be okay says:
seal
vanessa. says:
HAHAHA
- Jane*- gonna be okay says:
O:
vanessa. says:
okay okay got it LOL!
- Jane*- gonna be okay says:
yes...
- Jane*- gonna be okay says:
?
- Jane*- gonna be okay says:
HAHA
vanessa. says:
OMG this is a weird convo hahahaha
- Jane*- gonna be okay says:
HAAH ya lol
vanessa. says:
shall blog it LOL retarded jane
vanessa. says:
(:
- Jane*- gonna be okay says:
O:

dont you think this is so retarded hahahaha thanks to jane lah (:

2009-06-03T23:09:00.000+08:00

the feeling of home (:

yeppp plane landed at like 7++

ate at some china cuisine place hahahaha yay!

ate until 10+ cos i couldnt get myself to leave was watching tvb shows on air!

i love hong kong muaha.

i wont miss sg, at least not for now.

(come on there's nobody- except for my bimbos! and 4M peeps! (:- and nothing for me to miss ._.)

i feel so free here whoo hooo although i have loads of work to do -.-

AND AND AND.

HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY.

MY RENOVATED HSE OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG.

the main door looks like erm a safe LOL cos of the iron gates hahahahaha.

but yeah open the door and wow LOL the interior's superbbbbbb!

i am sitting on my princessy bed now blogging hahaha!

okay i am super happy now (i told you everything will be fine once i am out of singapore!)

yep yep okay off to take pics ard the hse ((((: (pic post sometime soon promise!)

and and shall finish some work tonight (:

shopping and more shopping to come for the next few weeks yipeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

shall draw up a list of souvenirs!

iris and sumeiiiiiiiiiiiiii!

:D:D:D:D:D

(NO RAYMOND FOR YOU SU AWWWW.)

okay i am hyper shall stay like that for the rest-

of tonight -.-

LOL.

bye world!

i love hk (:

oh and my dad too!

my hk mom also hahahahaha.

(dont be mistaken i only have one mother but yeah my mom is nicer when she's in hk haha!)

byebyebyebyebyebye dont miss me hahaha.

2009-06-02T20:17:00.000+08:00

(mine's too active.)

you all wont know whats happening.

so yep i dont blame anyone if you all think otherwise.

everything goes back to myself.

yep, i know.

but i dont regret anything.

(and even if i want to, i cant.)

2009-06-01T18:36:00.000+08:00

(something shines, when all else turns dark.)

tortured by physics and other shit.

i dread lugging all my work back ugh.

i'd be out of this place real soon.

i realized that i've got no reason to cry anymore.

i've got you all by my side.

thanks dad and mom!

p.s. thanks iris for calling to check (:
i am fine bimb dont worry! <3

2009-05-31T22:27:00.000+08:00

{edit}
i take back my words.
i shouldnt be thinking that.
i think i love you afterall.
(:
{/edit}

sometimes i wish you were dead.
dont make me hate you more and more.

2009-05-31T17:49:00.000+08:00

(i was never good at.)

sorry for the random spammages.

havent finished packing.

was trying to do up a list but yeah, kinda failed.

i was too distracted for anything.

shall continue to do my blog.

i dont want to start on any work today, until i get it right.

2009-05-31T12:16:00.000+08:00

(nobody owes me anything. i know.)

it's so hard to keep myself happy.

i am always on the verge of tears now idk why.

something in me is eating me up.

bit by bit.

somehow, i am suddenly not looking forward to the flight.

but i am so not going to stay here any more.

i feel i have nowhere to go.

2009-05-31T12:01:00.000+08:00

if only this feeling can fade.

i am always doing the wrong things at the wrong time.

i ought to learn to control myself.

take care, van.

you're flying soon.

take care.

2009-05-29T22:33:00.000+08:00

i am recently obsessed with the letter f.
zzz not exactly a good thing huh.

school's out yay.
but this means i have no more excuses to not start packing my one-month worth of luggage.
mom's nagging every minute, changing her minds abt which luggage i should use -.-
she's so excited about the trip she started packing hers 2 weeks ago (last time it used to be 2mths ago oh well she improved huh haha).
anw she insists i can't leave the house for more than half a day if i dont pack by her deadline (which can be at any time of the day she likes -.-)
which means...

on a happier note.
WE PWN WORLD OCEAN('s) DAY QUIZ
yayayayayayay! sugi me and daphne whoots.
hope it saved our pathetic class league a little! (:
omggggg imagine the thrill when we heard the announcement!
daphne and i were squealing in joy hahahahaha!
red sea, carribean sea and south china sea! :O

LOL i am flying in like dk how many days time yay.
away from everybody and everything.
i wont miss anything except for my bed and stuffed toys, this place is making me suffocate too badly i just want to get out and never come back (:
hk house is totally revamped (have i mentioned this before haha!) and i cant wait to be in my new room yayayay!
dad says the main door doesnt need keys omg how cool right!
just need fingerprint or sth reminds me of staffroom -.-
oh yes cant wait!
just let me out of here as soon as possible i cant stay anymore.
irritating people, disgusting stuff to do, boring lessons ughhhhhhh ):

on a sidenote, i read sth that made me feel really upset and pissed and wth-ish :/
i dont think our grades are moderated like that.
if you think its teachers adjust our marks so that our class average is higher than others, do have another think coming.
no point making yourself fume over some inaccurate idea you thought of.
you are stereotyping and setting in the difference yourself.
smile and perhaps you will feel better (:

2009-05-20T19:00:00.000+08:00

i have never been a nature lover but oh well, these flowers make me happy.

took the pics on my way home.

looked super dumb stopping halfway and squatting down to snap the shot and plussss my phone cam's seriously lag -.-

feeling kinda gloomy now though everything's going to be over tmr :/

i totally shldnt be here at all i've got jap and bio to rush through still.

dont wanna flop things anymore sigh.

but the temptation's too great again.

arghhhhh i am feeling rather hopeless now nooo ):

looking forward to weekends like i've always did.

14 more days.

goodluck, all the best.

2009-05-19T21:34:00.000+08:00

"life is a mesh and i am waiting to get out"

ahhh i have totally no reason to be here but i cant resist! ):

bio's getting out of hand plus i havent touched jap at all gah.

on a happier note, 15 more days.

hang on (:

but somehow i realize my school life is screwed.

i love being at home.

kay bye world, off to drown myself in germination.

2009-05-18T19:36:00.000+08:00

ahhhh bio jap bio jap ):

both are on thurs now gahh.

thats bad cos i suck at time management -.-

nonono and i just dont like some people!

ahhhhh.

okay eds night is coming good luck to all my darling drama juniors!

all the best guys you all can do it :D

cards coming your way son (i hope!) aft thurssssssssss

jiayou make eds night a blast yah!

okay sigh off to slp on my bio tb -.-

diffusion yay!

but meanwhile its dinner-time i am hungry!

16 more days to plane ride :DDDDDDDDDDDD

jy van you can pull through!

2009-05-17T18:57:00.000+08:00

SE concert was great with iris and su :D

tantan came over to my hse at ard 3+ and she bought me lunch!
kudos to ailiiii :D
she walked the extra mile for me yay walk to some nicer chicken rice stall and dapao for me (:
okay i wont complain alr iris dont worry :D
yep and we started ransacking my cupboard to help me find clothes hahahahaha!
found this orange retro piece omg super funny.
shld have taken a pic of me (before i changed- according to iris superrrr aunty haha!) and her to compare omggg.
MS NEW MOON iris HAHAHA!

left for bugis at like 5 then yep walked ard and iris bought a bee balloon for jiemin and i bought a bear-y rose for sub :D
su joined us at like 6+.
She bought a bear-y rose for her sis too, then dinner at yoshi.
yepp then su's parents sent us over to sch.
felt so grand in the car hohoho.
oh and sumei thinks red roses are boring but she wants the hot red sony vaio :O hahaha!

the ensemble pieces were nice and the encore part was hilarious hahaha!

oh and the most interesting experience of the night.
susu's mom sent us to aljunied mrt (yay thanks su! <3) and omg she and her sister superrrr cute hahahaha suhui’s so funny i think she’s damn cool!
okay anw back to the point.
i didnt realize it was like super late alr and then.
i was freaking stranded at aljunied mrt at like 12++++am.
omg i was totally freaked out haha!
iris' dad was alr there waiting to pick her up.
wanted to call my mom but i knw she wont care esp when she's sick -.-
and my papa's overseas he cant help ):
in the end iris and her dad came up with a wonderful plan that saved the day :D
iris cabbed home with me and father tailed us all the way.
my gosh thanks gazillion times iris! :DDDDDDDDDD
yayayayayayay i love you bimb!

okay now for some shots (:

17 cos my of my birthday thats not my age -.-

my cool bio note book. sigh not cool when i have to touch it later ):

coolest pic from the laggest phone cam -_- it was supp to feature me and iris yep ended up like wow cool waves.

yay yay :) US!

spastic smile omg van -.- iris tan gay pork is wearing my necklace! :D

okay sequence abit off this was taken on friday and iris forced me to post this cos she thinks she looks cute here! x_x

okay i am done here for now.

off to dinner and bio ))))))):

week 9 is no good ahhhh bio and jap test.

i am going to flop both as usual noo!

bye world.

2009-05-15T22:54:00.000+08:00

interclass today omg lollll.
i think they shld have a most hilarious class award -.-
definitely ours LOL.
the teachers there were laughing even the referees -.-
we just kept laughing at our erm 'skilfulness' and ya anyhow cheer and stuff.
eh but not bad lol we improved from last year's int class (bball o_o)
last year was ermmm 4:70++
this year (vs I) 7:25 and (vs G) 14:25
not bad right LOL our score doubled (:
hahaha
points came from mostly tongtong's imba serving, kewei's imba hitting and smacking (hohoho :D) and erm when the other class didnt manage to serve past the net.
but considering the fact that we actually turned up and tried our best (LOL) its fantastic results :D

and i conclude that iris tan aili has a funny way of serving HAHA she actually jumps!
and yihao thanks for sitting there with vivien to support us haha!
vivien thanks for staying back with us anyway (((((((((((((:

some things cant be forced.
its just like how you cant force yourself to eat food you hate.
you cant force feelings down my throat.
i am so sorry i hate the whole damn thing.
just waiting for it to be over and done with.

to the rest of you guys, good luck and all the best!
you guys will do great i believe(:
i love you all yep (:

2009-05-11T18:03:00.000+08:00

kudos to me.
just finished my jap stuff ):
jap's getting screwed-er this year.
not that i am expecting it to be good but yah its horrible :X
havent touched ace cheat sheet :/

tell myself its going to be over soon
jiayou van smile!

2009-05-10T16:04:00.001+08:00

just a random spammage of pictures i found in my phone -.-

just as i thought everything was okay and back to normal.

wishful thinking, i guess.

2009-05-04T21:19:00.000+08:00

死。

2009-05-03T19:32:00.000+08:00

fuck it.

2009-05-01T23:47:00.000+08:00

i guess.
vehicles change too.
vans are no exception.

2009-04-12T17:50:00.000+08:00

sighh. just finished geog essay.

i am depressed ):

dont have anything to write about but yet i exceeded the world count by damn alot.

i ought to stop being so verbose in essays :/

it kills.

good job van.

your geography is dying ):

i realize everything i get sth,

it disappears real quickly.

jap.

then now geog.

i'd rather not.

2009-04-11T17:57:00.000+08:00

omg sumeiiiiiiii.
you make me fall in love -.-
raymond lam's song ahhh super nice!
and i got the tune alr okay stupid bimb(:

but one thing is i can't get it into my phone's music player zz.
keeps getting stuck in my music file ahhh and this gives me much hassle when i listen to all my songs from the music player sighh.
oh well at least its in my phone alr :D
whooooooooooo shall bug my father to get me his album muahahaha.

loads of shit undone:
geog essay )))))))))))))))))):
jap compo ))))):
all my stupid jap online work ):
sighhh.
ace proj tmr at kris' hse.
unequal worlds//
the world has never been equal -.-

off to live in raymond's beautiful voice (:
going for dinner agn ahh i am so lazy!

2009-04-07T20:31:00.001+08:00

i dont care if you're reading this.
i just have to let it all out before i can concentrate on jap ):

what joy does it give you to announce every single thing that has nothing to do with you at all?
if you dont know how it feels on the receiving party, then shut up, please.
seriously.
you have to learn to be more sensitive, i am serious.
perhaps i have to stop being so over-sensitive.
have you forgotten the promise you made loong time ago?
to keep quiet about stuff?
its hard, but please try. out of sympathy, please?
maybe i am over-sensitive, in that case, i'd like to donate some sensitivity to you.
--
i know it's my responsibility to do whatever i am supposed to.
i want to.
i feel bad about it too.
but idk what i should do seriously.
i have to make choices but i cant.
if you were me, i'd be more genuinely understanding.
maybe it's just me, but you make me sound like i am some selfish, irresponsible freak.
i want to prove that i am not.
but idk how to.
in that case, maybe i am.
--
stop threatening please.
yes you.
and no my heart does not race whenever you bring it up.
it just proves that i shouldnt have done what i did.
to all the wrong things i blurted out, i am really sorry.
really really sorry.
if i can take 'em back, i would.
but at least i dont go around threatening you with it.
i did what i shouldnt out of apology.
you said i did too much wrong things against you and it is only right i do what you told me to.
but you didnt say you were going to use it against me.
thanks alot.
--
you dont have to kick up a big fuss about everything.
it's really annoying.
just stop it and keep it that way, please.
it's failing because we fail ourselves.

something is really wrong.
i am screwing everything up.
everything.
every single thing.
nothing makes me happy anymore.
my shows are beginning to get scary at some parts and i dare not continue watching.
it haunts me like everything else does.

these make me want to leave.
even more.

i'm really considering.

2009-04-05T12:32:00.001+08:00

its going to rain soon.
and van is not feeling very good now ):
sighhh.

what on earth is becoming of me :/

2009-04-04T18:57:00.000+08:00

yay i am happy (:
got linda chung's album today whooo.
currently hooked onto her songs haha.

going out for dinner real soon.

these few days have been kinda screwed.
SYF has passed by real fast.
seriously.
we were backstage and my jnrs were all wishing one another good luck and all the best.
ck even told me, "it's been nice knowing you, van"
LOL sounds like some departing moment -.-
yepppp there were a few blunders on stage but hopefully not obvious to the judges down there :X
dont ask me when will the results be out cos i have not the slightest idea hahahaha.

"to zoe,
hey dont get too sad over the outcome yeah.
sometimes, we might have put in great effort but just dont get the desired results.
stay strong, i believe you guys did well (:
we're behind you zoe zoe!
cheer up!"

next week's supp to be the test-less week but i've got phys pop quiz and chinese mo xie zzz.
):
sighhhhhh.

off to dinner now byebye!

2009-03-22T21:49:00.000+08:00

OHNO.
i need to find out what i am allergic to ._.
ahhhh shitty shit shit!
:X

2009-03-22T20:47:00.000+08:00

this is my story.
it is a very old story.

one fine night, an old lady living alone on the top of a nice little green hill was staring into the night sky. the starry night sky.
"how i wished i could stare at our shiny yellow friends for the whole night!" she told her little black kitten.
then a wonderful idea struck her. she went into her cozy little cottage and moved out her rocking chair.
"oh fine it is to be sitting under the starry night sky" she said in awe.
soon, she got a little tired of the rocking. then she mused to herself, "if only i could sleep under the stars!"
then she rushed into the house and pulled out her bouncy little wooden bed.
as she sat on the bed placed next to her rocking chair, she was feeling a little thirsty.
"how nice would it be if i had a cup of tea now!" she thought aloud.
then, she went into the house and took out her vacuum flask and her pot of tea.
placing them on the bed, she went into the house again to fetch the table.
as she sat on the bed to enjoy her nice little sip of tea, she got worried.
"i can't leave the milk and jam alone in the fridge!"
with that, she rushed into the hse again and dragged out the entire fridge.
worried that a fire might start in the hse with the oven in it, she ran into the hse agn to pull out the entire stove.
but still, the old lady couldnt enjoy the view of the starry night sky in peace. there was too many things in the hse she was worried abt.
(and yes you know the rest of the story. she went in and out of the hse a few hundred times, fetching out all the household items anyone can think of. yes, including the kitchen knife -.-)
...
feeling tired, the old lady forget entirely about her wish to watch the stars for the whole night and went to bed under the peaceful night sky.

a story from the jap book i read.
lol all pictures except for short paras of words.
and ya all the words were just listing out names of household items.
i had a wonderful time checking the dictionary.
-.-
yep off to write my book review on this LOL.
super fun hahahahahaha.

2009-03-21T21:56:00.001+08:00

things are no longer how they were before.
this is bad.

no dont be mistaken, i am not stressed up.
seriously i am not. (:
i am just tired and drained over a little something.
hope it will be over soon yeah.
hope with me.

:)

2009-03-20T22:14:00.001+08:00

goddamnit why the fuck are you so selfish.

van is in a super bad mood now.
i must learn to be strong and hold back my tears.
i can't speak properly when i cry, let alone reason.
asshole.

2009-03-20T14:26:00.000+08:00

heaps of things undone but i am feeling quite happy now idk why -.-

2009-03-17T22:54:00.000+08:00

birthdays arent important.
at least not mine.
had buffet dinner at mariott hotel and i freaking wore bond tee there.
besides caesar salad and oysters everything else was the normal stuff.

its emotionally draining to have a birthday in times like this.
i dont feel the usual happiness at all.
its just a typical day except for the birthday wishes coming in.
sweet sixteen? not sweet at all.
totally not.
i think its the worst birthday i had.
seriously.

who cries on their birthday?

there's a year 4 sc outing on thursday.
sorry guys if i dont turn up.
its not that i dont appreciate your efforts or what else.
i just can't in a state like this.
sorry.

a big thankyou to those who wished me happy birthday.
really sweet birthday wishes (:
thanks to my dear juniors for the birthday song (yes tingwei, ziying, sylvia and priscilla).
you guys are amazingly cute.

and yep.
thats it.

2009-03-13T22:21:00.000+08:00

some day, i am going to muster up enough courage to delete this blog.

things have been bad.
i am not doing my job for every single thing.
sorry guys.
if only i had a good excuse to excuse myself from the whole damn world.
screwing up everything dont ask me why and how.
i just managed to do that okay.

by 10.30 if i dont solve what i am forced to, i am just going to bury my head under the pillow.
its march hols and my big day is next tues but i dont feel like doing anything about it.
mama and papa booked some place for dinner idk where.
not in the mood to do anything now.

give the courage, please?

2009-01-27T17:35:00.000+08:00

SAY HI TO IRIS. (:
haha i was just bored.
kay off to watch teevee.

2009-01-26T23:12:00.000+08:00

my one and only new year resolution:

SLEEP

2009-01-26T15:57:00.000+08:00

CAS CHOW
YOU ARE SUCH A RANDOM IDIOT :D

"Pig! I'm currently engulfed in Cantonese. Haha."
wow cassandra.
your msg is so ___________ (fill in the blanks) i decided to pretend i didnt see it.
HAHA!
but anw, cantonese is so cool you should be happy you're engulfed in it.
haha i am not going to spam this post the way you spammed yours with my name [oh you love me so much :))))))))))))] but anw its quite obvious that this post is dedicated to you from yours truly. :D

and mind you cassa, its new year today and your poor friend here is spending time on a post for you! D:
you better feel honored you pig (:
time spent dedicating a post to some stupid person like CASSANDRA CHOW is time wasted! :D

hahahaha cas oh cas.
why do i have a friend like you :D

p.s. stupid girl, this is how you spam a post about a person. not like how you did it you silly girl (:

p.s.s I LOVE YOU CASS DONT FORGET TO GIVE ME MY LITTLE EARTHS.

2009-01-25T19:25:00.000+08:00

my sister's blasting music in her room.
and i hear kary's voice.
canto songs remind me of hk!
esp on new year's eve haha.

on the bright side, reunion dinners for me are always in december.
maybe june.
:D
special people do special things.
hah.
like having reunion dinners way after new year.

somehow i like that :D
as in seriously.
i dont mind spending new year eve at home just with my parents and sister.
its cool.
:D
and yep off to dinner (:

新年快乐Y
年年有瑜!

2009-01-25T19:01:00.000+08:00

She's oh-so-amazing. :D you should listen to her songs haha although i reckon you won't understand the lyrics at all lol. but her songs are super niceeeeeeeeeee (:

okay random post. and nope i am not going for reunion dinner of any sort but if you don't get through while trying to call me, i guess we're just busy with overseas calls delivering new year wishes lol. i brilliantly wrote a cheena script for that so i am just going to repeat the same old thing again and again to different people.

hahaha and yes i am going to get my angpaos but no not through the phone or mail in case you're wondering.

belated angpaos, i hope?

happy new year one and all (:

2009-01-24T00:02:00.000+08:00

TIRED :'(

2009-01-18T15:40:00.000+08:00

IT GETS ME ALL HYPED UP <3

GET ME ONE OF THESE, ANYONE? :D

2009-01-17T15:10:00.001+08:00

DON'T THINK THE WHOLE WORLD REVOLVES AROUND YOU.

you may be really tired.
but, who isn't?

just smile and everything will be okay.

2009-01-11T20:16:00.000+08:00

ORIENTATION'S OVER ):

i miss reporting to sc room every morning. like reaching sch before the sun completely rises. its our last orientation yr4s! (gosh i so dont feel like i'm in yr4 -.-)

concert night was a blast though we scraped like the sc skit (sorry guys for the effort you put in!) and sc dance D: but its okay cos everyone was highhhhhhh to the ultimate :DDDDD and my goodness the stupid unglam photo of me in the video! my goooooooosh -.-

here's our very cool jnr edmund! LOL TONGWEI :D and shanisca yee shang fang, edmund still looks cuter in this photo :D

benjamin and weixuan. lol someone shouted GILLIAN and weixuan immediately looked away. HAHAHAHA.

DHSPECTURM 09 :D (IRIS DONT STARE AT ME I AM SHY :D)

guess everything ended on a high note! :D
and i am still not prepared for lessons
especially not on the sixth storey -.-

2009-01-05T19:21:00.000+08:00

WHAT I WANT TO ACHIEVE THIS YR:
[abit late to do it now but yeah x)]

1) LAUGH EVERY MOMENT OF MY LIFE LIKE I'VE ALWAYS DONE. (gosh laughing is getting funner by day!)

2) LESS SHOPPING (i threw away like dno how many bags of unused stuff that i wont ever use agn ): i feel super bad seriously. so wasteful ):)

3) USE MORE OF MY STUFF (ohno how many drawers of cinnamoroll notepads and boxes of cinnamoroll pencils -.- i think i can go open a shop LOL -.-)

4) BOND MY DEAR CR!

5) JUMP IN MORE RAIN PUDDLES WITH SUMEI AND IRIS :D (only they two so retarded will go and rlly jump :D)

6) BE HAPPY :DDDDDDDD (so carefree these days lol thats cos sch hasnt officially started for me -.-)

7) LOVE MY SISTER, MAMA AND PAPA MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEE :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

8) MORE CRAZINESS WITH MY BIMBOS AND SC! ((((:

yep thats abt it haha!
random post [:
need reach aljunied at 6.15am tmr gosh thats like waking up at 5 for the slowwwwww me! D:
but poor iris and sumei 6.15 IN SCHOOL HAHAHA.
i am a lucky person! :D

2009-01-04T16:34:00.000+08:00

my gosh i'm bored.
finished packing my wardrobe.
like finally haha. now it's looking pretty neat i guess cos everything unwanted is strewn all over my bed -.-
mommy offered to help just now but i was busy then now i am ready but her eyes are glued to the tv LOL.
my voice is really leaving me ):
last orientation gone case.
i think i seriously laugh too much gosh.
kay off to glue my eyes onto the tv screen bye.

2009-01-04T12:44:00.000+08:00

SC farewell party was ytd and CR made the best food :D
exco item was a blast lol (sumei and iris: 'HOW CAN YOU LOSE?' hahaha i did this line real nicely hohoho xD)
and my eyes are still puffy from all the crying ):
and i think i laugh and sing too much during the deco my voice is sounding weird now.
gosh.
orientation's starting tmr yipeeeeeeeeeeeee terence and i are so going to pwn crazying ard.
i hope.
LOL that's if my voice decides to stay with me throughout.
i had a joke to tell my mom just now but i told her, "lets wait till my voice gets better"
and she starting laughing.
lol that wasnt supposed to be the joke hahahaha.
and the video mr yeo showed ytd, omg the singing and laughing part hahaha tt was so me right iris :D

okay i am feeling all hopeful and excited abt 2009.
-.-
righttttttttttt.

2008-12-24T19:20:00.000+08:00

OMG CASSANDRA CHOW IS NUTS.
:D

cas if you're reading this:
I KNOW YOU AGREE.

2008-12-20T23:15:00.000+08:00

帮我想办法。
我不要回来。

死掉就不用了啦！

2008-12-19T23:46:00.001+08:00

KILL ME.
PLEASE.

2008-12-14T19:01:00.000+08:00

christmas carols around here are reminding me of 25th.
i dont want to go back.
okay i dont mind going back actually but i dont want school to start again.
please?
i am so detached from everything i just dont want to get acquainted with them anymore.
anymore.
and i mean it.
dont come christmas.
dont come.
please dont.

p.s. sumei, i am in love with bosco and his new album :D

2008-12-11T15:16:00.001+08:00

continuation to my previous post (:

having a break from paper shredding at my papa's office.

LOL its real fun. watching a 2-inch thick pile of paper reducing to 1cm.

hahahahaha.

pictures for now :D

dajie, cherise, er jie omg i miss you all! ): (p.s. focus on guang guang's head :D)

home at last ((((: immersion with hk sch. my buddy is the crazy one right in front. we got the same chinese name lol. chan wing yue (tts me -.-) and wong wing yue haha!

bunny oh bunny! very cute right!

my father and i at outside some jap restaurant we ate at. thats my father's bag i am carrying lol.

at some arcade.

i realize my sister is a beauty :D okay she's holding a new friend she bought hahaha.

oh dont we look alike. -.-

i was falling backwards waiting for my phone camera to respond. then my sister say she nve press properly -.-
the beautiful (?) sunset scenery. i took it on my papa's car haha not bad right!

okay shall go watch the shuai guy in the masked rider show.

2008-11-24T23:28:00.000+08:00

flying to hk tmr (:
last update in taiwan!

daphne and me zipai-ing at some toilet in taipei 101 i think lol.

THE ROYAL FAMILY :D

grandpa-- loong ge LOL

grandma--val val (omg dont kill me ahma!)

chih siong-- jiayu's father (our.. godgrandpapa)

jiayu-- yizhen's godbrother LOLOLOL

mother-- sim yizhen

father-- (:

the kids-- guang guang, nien an, me, weiwei and daphne (in order)

[for fun only lah this family thing (:]

felicia!!!! her wobbly stomach is damn damn nice to touch ahahahah :D

me and nien an in some.. cave hahaha. was supposed to be climbing but ya. i think we were resting (:

this pic is taken in some pagoda thingy lol.

we were supp to be looking at some nature stuff around us. LOL!

at the seaside with dafei. zomg my hair is in a mess.

at some old fort. left to right-- wentian, guang guang, val val, dafei and me.

some lighthouse place. we climb all the way up and it was freaking tiring! haha artistic pic right right (:

this pict shld be first on top LOL. at some restaurant eating orange hahaha. green orange!

till then people!

see you in hk :D

2008-11-19T23:37:00.000+08:00

THE PICTURES ARE ALL NOT IN ORDER :D

me and daphne by the seaside. how loving -.-

nien an! :DDDDDDDDD

fish and bear -.- haha! aw daphne and yz's going to be so jealous. (and damn it some pig is going to niao zzzzzzz!)

me and dafei on the train to gao xiong! kewei's the photographer! :D

us and pur masterpieces! they're all edible. i guess.

a mosiac shot of our faces. guess who's who!

the sanrio ferris wheel at dream world! its damn nice! hahaha what happened in the carriage was even better. :D we were trying to zipai... (the six of us: me, daph, feli, nien an, jiayu and jauloong)

felicia: jiayu u shld come on top of me.

haha till then!

2008-11-16T22:02:00.000+08:00

AS PROMISED :D

my very cute little buddy MINNIE! haha i will miss her loads ):

our buddies and us! maggie(white)- cherise (cat face person [:), daphne (next to pole)-lisa (grey)

cherise and her pink bimbo cap -.- (!!) and me and my fake black specs hahaha!

poo poo restaurant! omg reminds me of dafei's poo :Sdabian! :X

/edit

some pig niao me abt the last picture!

so i shall just remove it.

/edit
okay till then!

2008-11-15T00:58:00.000+08:00

BSP TRIP @ TAIWAN
currently at my buddy's house.
her name is minnie ahaha.
her classmates say we both look alike :D
she's damn cute haha!
so what does this say (:

anw i like kang chiao sch haha.
damn cool like some palace zomg.
and the people also very nice!
had home econs class and some che ling class.
some stunts lah haha.

oman i dont want to leave the school sigh.
)):

pictures to be uploaded soon.
:D
till then!

2008-11-03T16:04:00.000+08:00

oman.
its raininggggggggggggg.
just now got thunder and i freaking jumped in my chair.
raymond lam's voice is damn cool!
maybe i will bump into him on the streets some day.
:D

其实我绝非爱得不疚
放手，放开所有

aww so nice right the lyrics ((:
i want to go back to hk!
but can we skip the bsp trip part :X

2008-11-03T15:08:00.000+08:00

TOMORROW'S THE BIG DAY.
):

going to transit in hk.
sighhhhhhhhhhhh.
what if tw has earthquake!!
and my luggage is heavyyyyy.
):
shall i bring my pillow or cinnamoroll there to hug while i slp.
damn it i can't decide again.
gotta wake up at 4++ tmr.
shall slp on the plane.

GAH i am not in the right mood for holidays.
i dread the homestay damn it.
its freaking scaryyyyyyy.
sigh.
hope everything will be fine.
:]

---
watched hsm3 ytd with iris and sumei!
haha it was awesome :D
sorry bimbs i didnt go for the camp.
):
---
alvin and the chipmunks damn cute haha.
i love theodore!
okay i think i am kind of slow lol.
but i forgot i had the dvd hahahaha.
so i only watched it today!
---

oh no oh no.
tmr.
i think it'll be okay.
:/
will be gone for 52 days.
4th nov to 25 dec.
yes christmas day lol.
till then!
]:

2008-10-15T19:12:00.001+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER :D
OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER.
okay i lag one day. hahahaha but its okay right!

finished watching my legend show!
super nice hahahahaha!
watching MOONLIGHT RESONANCE :D
the aunty in the show damn irritating la always scold the other aunty zzz.
FARA CHAN and TAVIA YEUNG so pretty!
raymond lam is whooooooo. hahahahaha.
kay i am obsessed.
BUT I AM PURRFECTLY STRAIGHT OKAY.
YES I AM! -.-
hahahaha!

2008-10-10T16:19:00.000+08:00

chinese was horrible :/
and my jap results are.
dishearteningggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.

screw.

2008-09-30T23:28:00.000+08:00

GOODLUCK GOODLUCK GOODLUCK

GOODLUCK GOODLUCK GOODLUCK

GOODLUCK GOODLUCK GOODLUCK

GOODLUCK GOODLUCK GOODLUCK

GOODLUCK GOODLUCK GOODLUCK

GOODLUCK GOODLUCK GOODLUCK

GOODLUCK GOODLUCK GOODLUCK

GOODLUCK GOODLUCK GOODLUCK

GOODLUCK GOODLUCK GOODLUCK

GOODLUCK GOODLUCK GOODLUCK

GOODLUCK GOODLUCK GOODLUCK

GOODLUCK GOODLUCK GOODLUCK

GOODLUCK GOODLUCK GOODLUCK

GOODLUCK GOODLUCK GOODLUCK

is something i don't have currently.
:/
all the best, people.

october 14.
till then.
:[

2008-09-07T19:15:00.001+08:00

3D2N MALAYSIA TRIP

i have nothing to say (-.-)

AHAHA. MY SISTER IS MOVING [!!]

my sister is the only one that fits the hole thingy.

I TRIED SHOOTING. *gulp*

but it turned out to be like this ^^^ (stare hard at the small square paper with the 11 on top)

in the nice hotel lift.

me and mommy!

spastic picture on the bus.

er wow. look at the superstar (-.-)
we were saying something but i can't rmb what.

totally unglam. look at the pole in between my legs ahahaha.

---

AHHH.

school's starting tomorrow. i've been waking up at 12++ this two days. it would be a miracle if i can catch the sub bus tmr. hohoho.

hohoho reminds me of santa claus. i am looking forward to christmas.

(good job van. it's only september.)

2008-09-01T23:26:00.001+08:00

sometimes, friends are all you've got.

i am feeling damn bad now.
i kind of foiled our plan to go out and celebrate sumei+iris' birthdays.
my father has been telling me to complete my homework before going to malaysia (on wed).
and it's quite impossible given the short amount of time left (-.-)
and i still have one bio paper, three chinese papers.
wow.

and hence.
i stupidly, selfishly sacrificed my date with iris and sumei tomorrow.
it was planned a long time ago to celebrate their twin birthdays (not exactly twin but both in sept) and good job van, you have decided to obey your daddy.

i don't get it zz.
i still got saturday and sunday to do when we come back.
my dad insists i am going to study on those two days.
jap and maths.
i seriously wonder how he got to know my schedule.

come to think of it.
i kind of wrote everything onto my whiteboard.
in red marker ink.
as a reminder for myself to mug.
OH NO VAN.
that's such a dumb thing to do.
i should have written it after going out tomorrow.

to iris and sumei,
thanks for being so understanding bimbs.
it was really comforting to see your messages.
really (:
i shall display what you guys wrote here:
sumei- GRR! i want my present! haha it's okay bimbs! we'll go out another day i'm sure! :)
iris- No prob! dont overstress yrself kay! jiayou!! :D enjoy yr trip too! :D
thank you bimbs!
you guys rock :D
i don't know what i will do without you all.
dates with you guys are so fun seriously.
((:
stonedates, mugdates and randome dates like going to tw's dance concert.
:D
i love you two loads.
truckloads.
really (:
(though i dont know what iris has against my eye cos she poked it twice! hahaha!)

dont really dears! i will compensate for cancelling tmr's date :X
things from malaysia~
i bring back some sand, water, pebble from there kay!
dont worry!

lastly, van shall TRY and finish her papers by tmr. which is kind of impossible.
(-.-)
it doesn't take a genius to calculate the probability of me being able to complete it by wed.
i can do it myself because the probability spells an obvious Z-E-R-O.
tsktsk.

2008-08-31T15:43:00.000+08:00

VAN WANTS TO EAT.

ESCARGOTS.

BUT SHE HAS NO MONAYE.

ANYONE WANTS TO TREAT HER.

D:

AHHHHHH.

ESCARGOTS.

ESCARGOTS.

ESCARGOTS.

):

cool.
in my desperation. i invented new faces hohoho.
#1 [):
#2 {):

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

but still.
I WANT MY ESCARGOTS.
[!!!!]

2008-08-24T15:05:00.000+08:00

lemon biscuits are so nice.

*munch munch*

i shall continue typing once i finish.hold on.

*finishes eating the biscuits*

kay yep now i can continue :D

friday was great though i screwed up my physics (8 marks one alr T.T) and SC and eds phototaking.

i kept blinking wth!stupid cas (ng) and iris tan and jiayan kept making laugh during sc phototaking.

hahaha.

and poor iris, i kept asking her to teach me how to smile.

mr yeo is the imba one lol.

one minute pass me his handphone to hold.then the next minute pass me a green pen and red pen.hahaha.

but unfortunately all of them got squashed by me and iris' big butts D:

went home with the ultimate bimbos.:D

come to think of it it's been a loooooooooong time since we reunited.

sigh.

say byebye to our stonedates man.

stupid _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _. zzzz.

but but i got to go home with them! whoo~

twf @ lit sem was great.

i was staring at this rice grain i dropped onto the floor, thinking of whether i should pick it up.natasha and charmaine were laughing at me! hahaha their stupid senior.

i think i was in a.. hmm weird pose cos i was squatting down with a plate full of PLAIN rice and staring at the small rice grain on the floor lol.

then this acs guy came and ask what i was doing. zzz. obviously trying to pick up something -.-

and yay yesterday marked the last of eds' performance this year.

i am over the moon.

over cassa chow's pink moon muahaha.

btw, i just cannot stand some people.

it's just one bloody mark. -.-

it wont scar anything zzz.

but anyway.

i (heart) iris and sumei!

we are so dumb i can't stand ourselves sometimes. xD hahahahha!

one noisy one quiet. -.-

one nuts one demure. x)
we can be crazy ^^ (most of the time only iris) and hardworking O: [sumei > mugger (:]

maybe artistic too. (me me me! ahahaha.)

and that's us in a milky light. but because i drank

up all the milk... we have:

SU + RIS + VAN only (: [no milk LOL what are

you thinking, i meant no milky light :D]

YYY

2008-08-17T20:24:00.000+08:00

the tarot cards were right.
i can't help but trust it.

how does it feel like to know you're going to die soon.
i wonder.
:/