10:17 PM. Tuesday, July 22, 2008
why do you all think i can do it when i can't.
why do you all force yourself to believe that i can do it.
i can't speak in front of a crowd on the spot.
i am not a confident person.
let alone speaker.
you don't know me better than i do.
i really can't do it.
i hate it when everyone stares at you and gives you the "you can do it! hang on there!" look.
their smiles are fake.
they just need someone to fill up the gap.
it's not because they really trust that you can do it.
it's not because you are good.
i don't understand why people turn a blind eye to someone who is evidenly better.
i can't do anything.
my grades are like bungee-jumping.
and i am hiding from all my responsibilities.
i am not that good a student.
i can't do anything really.
why can't you all just trust me for once.
once.
i want back all the smiles i used to have.
all the laughs.