10:12 PM. Tuesday, August 15, 2006
wth!!!! tml we got maths common test 3! arghhh! mr lim said it'd be parallel to the standard of the practice paper he had distributed earlier on. it was not hard, but i'd better not make advance judgements of my own maths. haha. anyway, sth drastic happened today. SHE through her tantrums AGAIN. we couldnt take it any longer. come on, how many umpteen times have we endured her attitude silently? in the past, we just muttered oaths under our breaths at most but today we just couldnt take it any longer. a problem cropped up when she said she didnt bring her bus card. she was in distress. Dear ****** came up with the best solution but she rebutted it. it's like not wrong to think the pessimistic way just in case, but her attitude was unbearble. she gave us that disgusting look. so what can we do? if she's so pro and clever then dont come and "consult" us! then she went with ****** to take public transport i think, but there was not enough time. i dont know what happened in details coz i was in the toilet. then i went back to the classroom, only ***** was there. ****** went to photocopy i think. then ****** came back and we were preparing to go when SHE came back with ******. we thought SHE was going to kick up a huge fuss like she normally would do according to our past experiences but she didnt. so we treated as if nothing has happened and conversed with her as per normal. nonetheless, her tone was so mocking and so tinged, not tinged, so OVERWHELMED with sarcasm and hypocrisy that we couldnt stand it longer. ****** bursted out and then SHE was like bla bla bla. we could have predicted that she had some ulterior motive for coming back to the classroom. Come on, SHE was ostensibly hiding a dagger behind her smile! we ignored her all the way till MOELC. then SHE complained that we didnt look for her during break time. she charged to my classroom and like literally rang her piercing voice throughout my classroom. she queried why we didnt look for her during break and bla bla bla. i was suppressing my anger. then i went back into the classroom. my phone then vibrated. ominous sign.
"what's your problem? you didnt even come and look for me during break huh freaker."
that was the crude and curt message i received from HER. i was boiling at the temperature of Earth's core by then. i am afraid of the outburst of vulgarities from me when I see HER later.
Stop living in your own world. your ego, pride and self-centredness is your Achille's heel and we came to our consenses that those are the reasons for your lack of friends during primary school. you want to be the centre of attention and attraction of everyone. you want everyone to be snatching for you. wake up! stir! come back to reality! if you continue with your attitude towards others, you will end up in solitude. we are not your servants, not your attendants. we have feelings too. we are composed of flesh and blood-just like you are. things that you are capable of doing, we are too. emotions that you can feel, we can feel too. dont be too tactless in your words sometimes.
phew, this was our plight with HER. blehxx, finished venting my displeasure and anger.
can you just stop acting cute and stop singing IT?i dont think it's adorable at all. you comment that people are extra and action, what about you?self praise is international disgrace, self praise is no praise.just finished smsing him. he has someone whom he likes, just as i had predicted. haha.
p.s. i know that the asterisks are very obvious. but it's meant to be apparent to HER yet concealing parts of THEIR identity.
I might like laughing but I am not always happy. I know happiness is not all around and that makes me sad. I dislike talking to people I don't like but talking to you doesn't mean I like you (:/) I am sorry I am getting increasingly sad by the day but I can't help it. I just want to get out of this mess quickly. Let me fly off and never return, please?
Hong Kong/Singapore
I have no cravings for now besides that. Until I get hold of it, I want nothing else. School's fine with certain friends around me, and I am thankful for that.(C:) Family's okay except that I won't talk much. I want to travel again to Japan because it can help revive my lost childhood. I love Sanrio because it helps calm me down most of the time. And in case you are wondering, Sanrio is not a tranquilizer. I want to be someone ordinary and I don't like to attract stares, esp. weird ones.
Bevie