10:20 PM. Monday, August 28, 2006
seriously, i improved for my science!!! i hope i didnt look into the wrong row which think i most probably didnt. i got 21/25! yay! the previous one was pathetic, i got only 14/25. haixx... but this time round, it was indeed a pleasant surprise! fiona got 22, congrats to her!! as for sheryl, must jiayou kae? but not that bad, at least you did better than my previous score! haha...lol. anyway, i think lady luck was really by my side. i got acceptable marks for my science, chinese and maths. as for my history, i dont know what to say. wish me the best of luck please!!! we will not be having anymore tests this term according to my instincts. haha. all the major tests will be clogged in term 4 week 3 to 4. haixxx... i think i must pull up my socks and prepare myself for the battle!!
mentioning about battle, i really dont understand the relationship among friends. arent we supposed to be happy for one another when we make great accomplishments? i agree that there is this inevitable trace of jealousy but it shouldnt be strong, should it? a vivid example will be for my idmi, there was a discrepancy in marks. i got 42 out of 50 which was like considered the highest in class. but my group members including ***** got like 40. then she was so anxious about the marks (or at least i think she was anxious about it) that when i went to ask mr tan about it, she was like "ya lor... mr tan, not fair you know!" what so not fair about? i mean there's like confirm to be a decrease in marks for me, i am not sad over it butsad over the fact that she is so concerned about winning her friends. i cant stand this point totally. let's not talk about her anymore.
i seriously think you've got a major problem. is your brain stuffed with junk and images of sean or is it just that you are experiencing puberty and your hormones are raging? if you dont change, even the people who used to be supporting you will rebel you too. if this really happens, ask yourself. it's no use apologising each time after you had an "outburst". remember, we are not you servants and you are ostensibly not our master. sometimes, i just find you so autocratic and problematic that i wish to avoid you for an entire day. stop it, please. anyway, you ought to know and recognise the people who are trying to treat you as a true friend.
1) alyssa - she's the one you always turn to when we bicker, isnt it? and how did you treat her during lunch today? just because she ate with her friends and not with you, you became angry. dont be so egoistic.
2) weiwei - you are always constantly picking on her. i dont find any problems lying with her. you are the one with the problem. you are the one who is irritating at times. but what did she do? she repaid your cruelty with kindness. during lunch today, she was the one who waited for you.
3) hanxi - what happened during recess today, you know the best. you regretted immediately after that right? just because of that trivial matter you screamed at her in front of everyone, "you are so irritating!" look who's the one who's irritating during recess - YOU!
treasure these people around you. if not because of them, you'd be sobbing everyday during recess and lunch like what you did today. stop wallowing in self-pity. reflect on your own attitude first. you always criticize that others have AP, have you ever thought about your own AP????
I might like laughing but I am not always happy. I know happiness is not all around and that makes me sad. I dislike talking to people I don't like but talking to you doesn't mean I like you (:/) I am sorry I am getting increasingly sad by the day but I can't help it. I just want to get out of this mess quickly. Let me fly off and never return, please?
Hong Kong/Singapore
I have no cravings for now besides that. Until I get hold of it, I want nothing else. School's fine with certain friends around me, and I am thankful for that.(C:) Family's okay except that I won't talk much. I want to travel again to Japan because it can help revive my lost childhood. I love Sanrio because it helps calm me down most of the time. And in case you are wondering, Sanrio is not a tranquilizer. I want to be someone ordinary and I don't like to attract stares, esp. weird ones.
Bevie